How to forget to feel

I wish I could remember what it feels like to...

...go through an entire day without needing a nap.

source.

...have my fingertips tingling with creativity electricity

creating new worlds.

source.

...discover something true and frightening through a dream

What would my Jungian mandala look like?

...be half a whole.

I found that I loved you afraid better than I had ever loved you fearless, and in that moment we grew up, and shut the gates of Eden behind us, and our empire was at an end." (Willa Cather, "The Treasure of Far Island")

But.

I sure do like how it feels to be sole.
[sole, individual, whole, soul, free, me.]

source, source

Going to California

I want to go to Disneyland to disappear.

Source

Saturday (Un)Productivity

Today:

So instead of getting my homework done,

or working on my honors thesis proposal,

1) I went to Spark Lounge with this beautiful girl for a reading by Pat Madden about his book Quotidiana because the essay genre is so, so great. (Seriously, his "Mea Culpa" was so much more interesting/hilarious than the fiction and poetry representatives there.)

2) And then I listened to Shakira's "She Wolf" about 30 times (not embedded because it's so explicit. Watch at your own discretion) and Taio Cruz's "Break Your Heart" also about 30 times (see below) and David Guetta's "Sexy B****" (the video for which which I won't even give you the link to because you shouldn't even watch it. What is with music videos being "acceptably" pornographic?? Not cool.)

Watch this though.

THESE SONGS ARE SO CATCHY I CAN'T EVEN HANDLE IT.

3) And then my new favorite best friend Erin came over with a delicious marble cupcake from the Sweet Tooth Fairy where she works now and I shared my delicious banana bread with her (Thanks to Kaitlin's grandma for the recipe!). And I offered Erin my tips on wooing cute boys because of my obvious and thorough expertise.

Erin and me at a daaance party

B and me with Sweet Tooth Fairy cupcakes at Park City

So I wasn't quite as productive today as I had planned. But I did 4) study GRE vocab with Emily (abstemious? moderate in appetite. obstreperous? noisy and difficult to control. done.) and I 5) finally did laundry and cleaned my room!

So I have a lot of work to get done tomorrow but oh well! It was a good day. :)

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[The plenitude (read: abundance) of hyperlinks in this post is to compensate for the dearth (read: shortage) of pictures I took today. Boo.]

Up next: The long-anticipated french (not capitalized) toast breakfast tomorrow. Will take pictures, don't worry.

PS. I want to do some series on here, but I don't know what I want to do yet. Let's be honest. My life isn't that interesting. Anyone want to read about how nerdy English stuff? Like how the Brownings were the Beyonce and Jay-Z of English poets? Or a creative writing series, like with short snippets of what I write? What about fun pop culture facts? Like how Modest Mouse (who will be here on July 8 for the Twilight concert series!!!) got their band name from a Virginia Woolf story or the newest Lady Gaga updates? Like this:

SIGH. Always more than I can handle.

I'll sleep on it.

Today, in Numbers:

After 2.5 hours of Aristotle

and 2 papercuts (on the same spot on my hand dang it.)

and 5 bowls of Frosted Flakes

and 1 dishwasher load,

I'm finally chiseling down my honors thesis into a more focused direction.

Hooray!

Oh Faulkner. You slay me.

And Frosted Flakes, you fatten me right up.

Just in time for summer.

Just don't ask me how many pages I have written so far on my actual proposal. Oops.

I know you were waiting for this...

More Gaga videos!

Don't even pretend like you're not gonna watch them. Because you are. And you're gonna love them. Seriously.

1) University of Oregon :

I wish I could be cool enough to be in an all-male a capella group performing Gaga songs.

2) America's Favorite Dance Crew :

These guys are SO.GOOD! And they really captured Gaga's essence, I think.

(PS. They won this round on the show!)

3) Troops in Afghanistan :

I'm pretty sure this is for reals.

And if I were to make a potentially non-PC, not-that-funny joke here, I'd say something like Sure don't need to ask or tell here! But I won't.

All this Gaga just makes me want to go daaaancing. Any takers? :)

(Thanks to Jimmy, Pica, and Trav for sharing these links with me!)

Letters from the LRC

Dear boy sitting at the computer across from me,

Forgive me for accientally playing footsie with you. Repeatedly. I just like to slouch.

Dear sadly inept library administration,

Please come to your senses and realize that this congested, ventless, non-air-conditioned room is full of 300 constantly buzzing eletric boxes spewing heat. Your solution of placing two fans in the back cools down the room as much as an ice cube would in a closed oven.

Dear whoever on campus is in charge of computer lab availability,

Why are there not more Macs on campus? Don't you want me to be able to do my homework? I'd appreciate it if you could fix this Mac shortage asap.




Dear creative nonfiction class,

The selections I will read tomorrow from my essays will not be very eloquent or witty or interesting. But I will bring warm cinnamon rolls, so please make me feel brilliant and original and hilarious.

Plus, some post-it advice:

Today,

I finished the crossword puzzle.

I stayed on campus and did homework for three hours more than I had to just to skip FHE that was being held at my apartment.

I had productive conversations with quite a few, quite intelligent individuals about what I hope will end up being my honors thesis.

I learned the word somnolent : "of a kind likely to induce sleep, a somnolent sermon" or "inclined to or heavy with sleep, drowsy."


So today, I'm feeling pretty good. But after running on 3.5 hours of sleep, I'm also feeling pretty somnolent. Glad I'm not feeling frazzled and chomped anymore, like this.

chomp-chompin' on tulle. source.